2008...

2008 - The miracle year in my life...





2008 was a great year. It was the year I will never forget in my life.It was when I experienced the most beautiful miracle of life. I became a mom. Not anyone's mom, I became my sweet heart Mariana's mom.

I felt for the first time this little thing growing in my belly, changing my body and my emotions in crazy ways (poor Rob, he needed to deal with it) and I still can't believe it became this gorgeous, sweet baby girl.

For the first time in my life I understood why some people like my own mom, my sisters in law and Tracie are able to have 3, 4 or 5 kids and don't care that they don't have time to spend the whole day watching tv with their hubbys or shopping with their girl friends. And they actually think their life, even been so crazy and messy is great. Even worse, they will recomend it to everyone, and now, I will too. I used to think tey were totally crazy and had no way I would want to change my peaceful, free and party life style.

I am starting to understand that I can be exausted, I can get crazy, I can be mad but even if I feel all that in the same time, I feel happy still.

I will never feel like my life makes no sense anymore. And I will never truly understand the miracle of love and mercy of God that creates a new life. I will always be the most grateful person that God trusts me to take care of His, and now mine, beloved little girl.

I know that no matter how many books I read, I will never be a perfect mom but I will have to try my best every single day. And no matter how good I think I am and Rob is, we will have to pray with all our heart to God guide her life and her heart to the right path and protect her from all this millions of things we can't control.

And I finally understand that having a baby is the closest way to love someone as God loves us. And finally I Corynthians,13 sounds possible, besides beautiful, to me.

I will never be able to explain how my love for my Hubby became way deeper and bigger when we finally became a FAMILY...

JESSE

Jesse will finish High School on June of 2009. We are very happy for him and I am very excited for he going to College. Specially now that he decide to take 3 classes of math (wich ones he will receive credit for) after me and Rob get very mad at him and talk without stoping about his crazy idea of not taking math cause he is "Too" tired and he doesn't need to.

But what really got me very excited was the picture Dede took of him smiling. The first one since I've knowing him (3 years!)

We still not knowing much about his "social" life and dates cause he is still "too cool" to let us know about it. He just told me he hates women (obs: "WOMEN" not girls).When I said "Thanks" he told me I am the coolest (It makes me feel better and think that hopefully I am not part of the hated women's list). Well even hating them he decided to grow a bear so he gets 2 years on age and he can hang out with those awful, hateful, older women.

He loves wakeboarding and snowboarding and he is very good on both sports.

MARIANA

Mariana is growing very fast. Everyday she learns something new and we estimulate and reward her with tons of kisses, hugs and congratulations in all languages. She is very smiley and sweet. She just discovered her feet and doesn't loose the opportunity of holding them. She "talks" a lot and loves been held by her Daddy. They walk all over the house with their heads up looking all around. They have the same expression on their faces when they look at me, it is very funny, but sometimes makes me worry if I will have to deal with 2 Robs! She is starting to roll over and she always pulls her head up trying to get up. I think she is very strong and alert for her age, but I am her mom so what I think doesn't really count cause I will always be amazed for ANYTHING she does.

She also loves to play with her sweet cousins. Wesley and Chase are so sweet with her, makes me very emotional seen them taking such a good care of their little new cousin. I guess Chase is not sure she is not a boy yet (he always tells me he (Mariana) needs his (her) diaper changed). Maybe Dede is right, maybe he just thinks she is broken cause she does not have a peepee.

They are Adorable!!! :)